Another restless night, another endless fight. With the lover of my life. Just go get out my sight. She said to me, so quickly, yes i just vanished. Into a spiraling downfall that ended all of the magic./ Between us, no trust, no shine. Just rust. All the time. In my mind endlessly just lurking. Love her in my thoughts, can never do it in person. The pain just thickens and worsens, as I medicate the hurting./ Mellowest villain, forever realest and chillen. Higher than 3 story ceilings, while im misery concealing on these feelings. Pain killing, burnt villains, popping pillins by the millions. Bitchin women, get to twisted into this lovely sinning./ Humble beginnings to sad pathetic endings. And we’re still pretending to still be in love while we’re just bending. Reality, to shape it into blind our own happiness. That crappy shit. Ruined at the roots, it was the nappiest./
You hurtin me, so perfectly. You bring out the jerk in me. Drained me of my pride and my currency for certainly. And now your dirt to me. And personally think your working me. Over to not be sober, which is why im always burning trees./ But somedays I reminisce over times in which we loved. Way before the fighting, hatred, all before the drugs. Just for a hug, I’d give it up. For you, my one and only. I know we’re still in love but, still we’re so lonely./ I dont know, but you probably dont show. Any love for stranger. Like me towards these hoes. But of course, you dont care, only stuck on the past, of how I did you wrong and was gone with the dash./ Forgive and forget? Some shit you can never forgive and never forget. Filled with regret, my life is closer death. Im short of that breath. One more step over the cliff, after this hit, then I’ll split. Falling back swift as my mind just drifts away from all of this./ Screaming while stuttering, emotional suffering. I miss her and I’m wondering, how she even loved me. Forearm cutlery, im ugly with my chubby cheeks. Ragady, and my armpits reek, but she did love me..//
Out of love..
Group Therapy-Pain On My Left Side (Ruff Mix)
I was diggin’ through some old emails, and came upon this ruff copy. This track is still a classic for me. I miss some of that good ol’ underground hip hop. Enjoy.